Pleased to meet you.

So I've never been a huge fan of New Years Resolutions, because

I think if you really wanted to make a change in your life of a considerable 

size, you would make that decision any day you felt the courage and drive to

do so. I don't think you should have to wait for a certain date.

That being said I've decided what I want to start doing.

I realize over the past few months after several large things have happened in my

life that I never fill my friends and family in on what's currently happening in my

life, so when something big happens I end up having to explain the entire story. 

I suppose I have a habit of doing this because I honestly feel like people don't want

to hear about my problems, so it might take some getting used to, but I want

to start making an effort.

And I will be doing my best to abide by this quote over the next short while and

see how it ends up working for me:

"If not now, then when?"

always,

Jacob

Photographs are not mine, gathered from various tumblr's and blogs.

I guess I'll find out in 17 days.

I had a dream a few nights ago that really made me think.

I dreamt that I had been in some sort of accident and the accident had killed me,

however for some reason I had a certain amount of time to stay on this earth with my

body still intact. I told the people that I loved that it was so, I made decisions to go 

places that I can't go because of where I am in my life right now, and I was

very happy. 

Until I woke up..

I woke up and I didn't quite snap out of my dream for a few minutes, I was

absolutely terrified. I cried and I thought of all of the people I was leaving.

I've been thinking a lot about the things that I did in my dream, because usually

in dreams we do very irrational, nonsensical things that have no place in reality.

This dream was realistic in the fact that the things that I carried through with 

are things that I truly desire in real life.

I don't know what that means, but I've been very thankful this week, and I'm trying to

make everyone in my life feel loved.

love always,

Jacob

First two film photographs are that of my own, including the portrait of myself at the end.

The rest are collected from inspirational blogs and random places.

Coulda, shoulda, woulda, didn't.

Well let's see, I haven't posted anything in over half of a year. But here's my life.

I'm happy.

That's all folks.

-Jacob

Ps, Here's some photos I uncovered in my old closet from a few years ago.

Featuring my beautiful friend Jenn.